For the last two months I've been watching some of my beloved characters slip away. As of this morning, the last "planned death" took his poison to join the sleepers. It's a relief in some ways, but it still hurts. I can't be certain that I'll ever find my muse. That I'll play with any regular sort of activity because I just don't have it in me anymore. I also never want to play as obsessively as I once did; it wasn't and isn't healthy. This blue gray world will always have a piece of my heart no matter if I stay or go. For now, I'm rooted in place with my remaining characters even if they're quiet.
BUT! Onto better news.
My life outside this game has been unreal. There is a man that loves me and treats me better than anybody ever has. As big of a dreamer as I am, I never thought I'd have something as wonderful as this. But he's my person. That absolutely cliche, love-at-first-sight kind of thing. We're planning and building a life together that is worth more than any game. Truly, I've never been happier.
I'm currently in the concentrated process of paying my house off with plans to use the sale to buy a larger home on the river. And working towards my degree so I can eventually work from home. I've been training for my first half marathon that is approaching faster than I've even realized; though I already know I can make it a half hour under the requirements so just improving until race day. All of these adventures are taking all the time and energy I have.
To the friends I've made here; forgive me for being so absent. You are all such incredible, wonderful people and have been so supportive. I can't begin to tell you what your friendship has meant to me. Looking forward to continuing these relationships even if I disappear more and more. I'm truly sorry for any lost roleplay; it was never my intent nor desire to fail so badly in that department. Thank you for understanding and even keeping me on despite lack of responses [though I thoroughly understand if you decide to pursue new adventures].
Love you all.
Add me on Skype or Facebook if you desire [I'd love to hear from you].
Send me a private message and I'll get you my information. <3
BUT! Onto better news.
My life outside this game has been unreal. There is a man that loves me and treats me better than anybody ever has. As big of a dreamer as I am, I never thought I'd have something as wonderful as this. But he's my person. That absolutely cliche, love-at-first-sight kind of thing. We're planning and building a life together that is worth more than any game. Truly, I've never been happier.
I'm currently in the concentrated process of paying my house off with plans to use the sale to buy a larger home on the river. And working towards my degree so I can eventually work from home. I've been training for my first half marathon that is approaching faster than I've even realized; though I already know I can make it a half hour under the requirements so just improving until race day. All of these adventures are taking all the time and energy I have.
To the friends I've made here; forgive me for being so absent. You are all such incredible, wonderful people and have been so supportive. I can't begin to tell you what your friendship has meant to me. Looking forward to continuing these relationships even if I disappear more and more. I'm truly sorry for any lost roleplay; it was never my intent nor desire to fail so badly in that department. Thank you for understanding and even keeping me on despite lack of responses [though I thoroughly understand if you decide to pursue new adventures].
Love you all.
Add me on Skype or Facebook if you desire [I'd love to hear from you].
Send me a private message and I'll get you my information. <3